I Need Anti-Seizure Medication that Will not Cause Depression

I am still trying to get my anti-seizure medication situation straightened out. I need something that will stop the seizures without causing depression. Marijuana would be the best solution, but it is not legal in North Carolina. It is available in pill form here but only for those for whom nothing else works. Maybe they will be able to prescribe it. The US government proved in tests seventy years ago that marijuana can stop seizures. They still made it illegal. It has many health benefits, but the government would prefer keeping it illegal. It needs to be made illegal nationwide. The US government has no interest in making sure that the country's population is healthy. They want to keep the big pharmaceutical companies happy. Depression is not something that I want to fuck around with. My health providers are not interested in fixing this in a timely manner. If I had a lot of money this would not be a problem.

A Friend in Prison

I found out why a friend is in prison. He shot someone. I do not know the circumstances, but I can be sure that it was not unprovoked. I had lost his address. I only knew him for a short period of time, but I know that he is someone who will stand up for people who need to be defended. I know that he struggles with keeping his temper. I know that he is a good person. I probably will not see him again, but I will continue to be his friend. I would prefer to be friends with an honest person who will stand up for to being a friend who claims to be a friend who betrays my confidences. I think he is sexy, but he is straight. I would not invade his comfort zones. This is out of respect not fear. I am a loyal friend, and I will remain his loyal friend as long as he wants. He knows that I am gay, and he accepts me as I am.

Trying LSD

I had been wanting to try LSD, and I finally did that in October. The first time I had too much. I do not know how long the trip was, but I seemed to be caught in a time loop. A friend kept asking me if I was OK. Sometimes I answered. At times his gender changed. I remember thinking that I was going to have to live through the same minute over and over again. There were things that I seemed to need to figure out, but it did not seem to matter whether or not I figured these things out. Then I was in the same room, but everything was covered with mud. It was the end of the world, and everything was disintegrating. I cannot describe what happened after that. I now understand psychedelic art. Most of the LSD was administered in my eye. I had less LSD the second time. I was more aware of what was going on this time. It seemed that I was more aware of the molecules that make up our physical world. I will only do LSD or shrooms with people whom I trust.

Я хотел попробовать ЛСД, и в конце концов я это сделал в октябре. В первый раз у меня было слишком много. Я не знаю, как долго была поездка, но я, похоже, был пойман во время цикла. Друг все время спрашивал меня, все ли в порядке. Иногда я отвечал. Время от времени его пол менялся. Я помню, что думал, что мне придется жить через одну и ту же минуту снова и снова. Были вещи, которые мне, казалось, нужно было выяснить, но, похоже, не имело значения, понял ли я эти вещи. Затем я был в одной комнате, но все было покрыто грязью. Это был конец света, и все распадалось. Я не могу описать, что произошло после этого. Теперь я понимаю психоделическое искусство. Большинство ЛСД было введено мне в глаза. У меня было меньше ЛСД во второй раз. Я больше знал, что происходит в это время. Казалось, что я больше осведомлен о молекулах, которые составляют наш физический мир. Я буду делать только ЛСД или шары с людьми, которым я доверяю.

Ich wollte LSD probieren, und das habe ich schließlich im Oktober getan. Das erste Mal hatte ich zu viel. Ich weiß nicht, wie lange die Reise dauerte, aber ich schien in einer Zeitschleife gefangen zu sein. Ein Freund fragte mich immer wieder, ob ich in Ordnung sei. Manchmal habe ich geantwortet. Manchmal änderte sich sein Geschlecht. Ich erinnere mich, dass ich dachte, dass ich die gleiche Minute immer wieder durchleben musste. Es gab Dinge, die ich zu klären schien, aber es schien mir egal zu sein, ob ich diese Dinge herausgefunden hatte oder nicht. Dann war ich im selben Raum, aber alles war mit Schlamm bedeckt. Es war das Ende der Welt und alles zerfiel. Ich kann nicht beschreiben, was danach passiert ist. Ich verstehe jetzt psychedelische Kunst. Der größte Teil des LSD wurde in meinem Auge verabreicht. Ich hatte beim zweiten Mal weniger LSD. Mir war mehr bewusst, was diesmal vor sich ging. Es schien, dass ich mir der Moleküle, die unsere physische Welt ausmachen, mehr bewusst war. Ich werde nur LSD oder Pilze mit Leuten machen, denen ich vertraue.

"Cheech Is Not My Real Name...But Don't Call Me Chong!"

I have never been a fan of Cheech and Chong, but I this book caught my eye in the local library. Cheech Is Not My Real Name...But Don't Call Me Chong!" is an entertaining book. I finished the book in two days. I am still not a fan of the duo, but I may want to check out some of Cheech Marin's films. I did not know very much about him before reading this book. He is an intelligent man, and I would recommend this book. He mentions Timothy Leary in this book. I had met Timothy Leary at a science fiction convention. (I finally tried LSD a couple of times this year, more about that another time if I remember.) I have more respect about Mr. Marin after reading this. Read this book. You will enjoy it, and you will probably learn something.

"Stolen Beauty" by Laurie Lico Albanese

Stolen Beauty is an interesting novel by Laurie Lico Albanese. It is based on events that took place in the lives of two women, Adele Bloch-Bauer and her granddaughter Maria Altmann. It centers around a portrait of the former by Gustav Klimt. Other events and people are part of the story, of course. I was entertained and educated by this book. The main characters are portrayed as whole, likable people. Growing anti-semitism in Austria during the 20th Century is portrayed. Gustav Klimt comes to life in this book as well as the women mentioned above. Their families are also vividly portrayed. This is a book that was hard to put down. This book makes me want to learn more about the art of Gustav Klimt. I highly recommend this book.

"Weaveworld" by Clive Barker

There is always something magical about the writing and art of Clive Barker. His stories, films and other art do not fit neatly into any single genre. Weaveworld has aspects of horror and fantasy. Clive Barker uses language very well. There are a few things that make me shake me shake my head. Rue Street is not the most original name for a street. I first read this book when it was first published in paperback, and did not read it again until this week. It was first published as a hardback in 1987. This is a book that one can read multiple times without losing interest. A world of magic is woven into a carpet in order to protect it and its inhabitants. I felt myself drawn into the world of the book as the main characters were drawn into the world inside the carpet. Few writers posses the mastery of the English language that Mr. Barker does. Here is a phrase that struck me, "He felt sick as a flea in a leper's jock strap." I recommend this book to anyone who enjoys getting lost in a book. Clive Barker remains one of my favorite authors.

Adult Content

I got to suck two cocks last week. One guy shot his load into my mouth. That was yummy. I have known him for less that a year, but I have had fun with him. He got me started smoking something that makes me horny. I have known the other guy for several years. He did not cum in my mouth, but we had fun. We  sucked each other, kissed and cuddled. I have heard that he is as big a slut as I am. Maybe my sexual dry spot has ended. I have other friends with whom I enjoy myself. To be honest friendship without sex is better than sex without at least friendship.