Four unconnected topics (Adult Content)

It seems that our internet has been disconnected, so I will be posting less frequently.

Not long ago I was walking down a street when I saw a sexy man walking towards me. We spoke, and  we looked at each other a few times. He yelled out to me. Then he came up to me. He asked if I lived close by. I asked what he was looking for. He asked if I wanted to have fun. I thought he was talking about sex, but I wasn't sure. Hesitantly I said I liked to suck cock. He wanted to fuck me, but I have not been fucked in years. He asked if I would suck him if we found a place. I said I would. We looked around and found a place. He pulled his cock out, and I sucked it until I got a tasty load. It was delicious. It had a unique taste that I loved. I hope we can do it again. We exchanged numbers.

I finished reading "Myra Brecknridge." For me the ending is sad. The view of transgenders has changed since this book was written, but it is still an entertaining book. It has definitely aged since it was published in 1968.

It is harder for me to proofread on my phone, so please forgive errors.

Musings on Being Submissive (Adult Content)

Sometimes I have enjoyed being submissive to someone who is usually a sub. I had a roommate once who was usually very submissive. We spent a lot of time cuddling and kissing. He had a boyfriend who did not mind him doing these things. I promised to stay out of his pants, but sometimes this was difficult to do. A few times he got an erection, and he fucked my face with his cock still in his jeans. This was not the most pleasant feeling, but it was still fun. It was fun to bring out his dominant side. Sometimes the head of his cock would stick up out of his underwear, and I would take it into my mouth. We both loved cuddling and kissing. He was a great at both. Before he moved out we went a bit further. The last weekend we spent a lot of time cuddling, and he said "Let's go up to my room." When we got there we took our clothes off and fucked. I fucked him. He tried to fuck me, but he was not able to get into my hole. All three times he came while my cock was in him. I may have been penetrating him, but he remained in control. We were both a bit frustrated that he was not able to penetrate me. All three times I licked up his cum from the floor or his bed or wherever it landed. It can be a lot of fun to bring out the dominant side of someone who is normally submissive.

Danzig II Lucifuge

I am listening "Danzig II: Lucifuge." Some of my friends find Danzig's music too dark, but I enjoy it. I have music that is darker. I would definitely not play their music around my Christian friends, especially "Snakes of Christ" and Devil's Plaything." Sometimes I like to listen to music that has a darker sound, but that should not be a surprise to anyone. Eventually I will replace my Christian death metal CD's. Actually Danzig does not sound that dark to me. I will write more about darker music I like when my brain isn't falling asleep.

Starting the day by putting on my armor (AC)

I am putting on my emotional armor at the start of the day. I have the emotional, intellectual and physical strength to make it through this day. I am not going to let anybody tear me down. I refuse to build myself by tearing other people down. I will have to deal with people who do this. I cannot let myself be dragged down to their level. I cannot control how other people act. I can only control how I react to their actions. I feel best when I am happy with who I am and help other people to be happy with who they are. That does not mean that I do this to my own detriment. I am not going to help homophobes to be proud of their homophobia. A lot of the homophobic guys really want to come out of the closet as being gay or bi.In a way I feel sorry for them. I have fucked at least one guy like that. I may have sucked some of them. I am proud that I have been able to please men. I am a cum slut. I do hope to be able to form a relationship with my new friend, but I am not going to be ashamed of who I am. Those guys who look down on me for sucking dick do not know how much they are missing by not letting me suck them. That is their loss. Having one man to love, suck and fuck will make me happy too. He is my  girly boyfriend, and I love him. I will expose my feminine side with him. I love combining masculine and feminine in my attire. It can be fun being an asshole bitch. I wonder how he feels about piss play.

Well, time to get ready for work and dealing with bullshit. I have my armor on, so I will be fine.

Update on my Situation

Things are getting a bit better, but it is still a bit bumpy. I am looking into job possibilities. I applied to a couple of temp agencies. I got a call from one of them. I have an appointment with one of them on 8 September. A friend is also going to see if he can help me to get a job where he works. I may be without internet access soon. I need to move, and I do not know if I will be able to afford it. I need to work and live in circumstances that are less stressful. It is wearing on me when I have to deal with excessive stress at both places.

I do not understand people who think that giving other people the same rights takes away from their own rights. I especially do not understand people who are against LGBTQ rights while thinking it is all right to be married and divorced multiple times. One of these people said to me that she followed God's law not man's laws. She follows God's when they fit her views. I am not better than anyone else, but that seems like hypocrisy to me.

I am going to continue to keep my head up. I will not let people mistreat. I deserve as much respect as anyone else.

More Musings On My Current Situation

I am not sure what I am going to do to get out of my current situation, but I am reaching out to my friends for ideas and help.  I may be mostly alone where I am, but I know that I have friends. I am not going to give up. My new friend has offered to help me to find a new place. Some other people have offered to help in whatever way they can. I know there is somewhere that I fit in. I just need to find it. I am going to keep my head up, and I am going to accept and love myself as I am. I will continue to try to improve as a writer. I do not know if I will ever find a market for my writing, but writing is an essential means for self expression for me. I need to be with people with whom I can talk. My writing is also a way to connect with people.Sometimes it seems like my sister and I are speaking completely different languages.

Well, I'm not ready yet, but it is time for me to get ready to go to work. I'll survive it.

Thoughts on My Current Situation

I need to work harder on finding a new place to live and a new job. I am not very good at practical things like that. I wish I had more common sense. I am much better at abstract thought than I am at being practical. I have never been very good at small talk. Thinking and talking about music, literature, art, languages and philosophy come more easily to me than relating to the daily life of other people. My brain definitely seems to be wired differently from the brains of most of the people that I know. It is hard for me to ask for help from other people, but I need help finding a new job and a place to live. I know things will get better. I wish I were better at the practical things in life. I need to work on it. I am happy with who I am, but I still need to work on some things.