Post at 16:04 5/2/16

A sweet friend gave me a ring last week. I do not get to see him often. I would happily play around with him, but I do not think that we will be able to do that. I am wearing the ring on the little finger of my right hand. I lost my gloves, and he gave me a pair that he had. I enjoy spending time with him.

I wrote before about a friendship that seems to have ended. Once he said that no one would like me if I was not hanging out with him. He would want me to stand around and wait for him while he talked to other friends and ignored me. He was sweet at first, but he seemed to get jealous of another friend. I still miss him. I worry about him because of some of the things that he does.

I still have some other good friends that I met on the street. They accept me as I am. I feel relaxed around them. I cannot see them often because of the cold weather, but I know that they are still good friends. They al know that I suck cock, and some of them might let me such theirs.

A Post with Some KInk

I won't be able to play around in a hotel room with my friend until I am not staying at the homeless shelter. I cannot stay out overnight. There is another guy who may let me suck his cock and swallow his cum and pee. He might even spank me. I hope so. I have not been able to see my friend who uses me as a urinal much lately. He does not come out much when it is cold. I won't be able to please my Master until his house is finished later this month. I would love to be used by all three of them in the same place as a cum dump and urinal, but I know that at least one of them wants me to be his alone.

It seems that I have lost the friendship of one man whom I loved. He became jealous of another friend. He said that he only wanted to be friends, but I think that he just wanted me to spend money on him. He started putting me down. He wanted me to wait around while he talked to other friends while he ignored. The guys mentioned above are kind to me. I don't need people who put me down.

Rumors (Adult COntent)

I have heard some rumors that are being spread about me. I am not upset about the rumors, but I do not want the other person included in the rumors to be upset by the rumors. Someone has been telling people that we are in a relationship, but we are really just friends. People are also saying that I pay him for him to let me drink his urine. I do drink his urine, and I give him money. I do not pay him for this. If he wants people to know that I drink his pee I do not mind. I am turned on by the idea of people knowing this. I would even enjoy drink his pee in front of someone else. I am the sex slave of someone else, but I would still do anything that this guy if I can.

I hope to have a home in a basement dungeon soon.

Another Update with a Boring Title

I have not been working much lately. I hope that this does not continue long. I am trying not to spend too much time alone, because I am feeling depressed at times. I know that things will get better. I am not going to give up. A hard cock in my mouth would be a temporary solution, but I would enjoy it. I would love to get some cum and urine.

Ich habe nicht viel in letzter Zeit gearbeitet. Ich hoffe, dass dies nicht lange dauert. Ich versuche, nicht zu viel Zeit allein zu verbringen, weil ich mich manchmal deprimiert fühle. Ich weiß, dass es besser wird. Ich werde nicht aufgeben. Ein harter Schwanz in meinem Mund wäre eine vorübergehende Lösung, aber ich würde es genießen. Ich würde gerne Sperma und Urin bekommen.

Я не работал много в последнее время. Я надеюсь, что это не продолжается долго. Я стараюсь не тратить слишком много времени в одиночестве, потому что я чувствую себя подавленным в разы. Я знаю, что все изменится к лучшему. Я не собираюсь сдаваться. Жесткий петух в моем рту будет временным решением, но я бы наслаждаться этим. Я хотел бы получить некоторую сперму и мочу.

Я не працював багато останнім часом. Я сподіваюся, що це не триває довго. Я намагаюся не витрачати занадто багато часу на самоті, тому що я відчуваю себе пригніченим в рази. Я знаю, що все зміниться на краще. Я не збираюся здаватися. Жорсткий півень в моєму роті буде тимчасовим рішенням, але я б насолоджуватися цим. Я хотів би отримати деяку сперму і сечу.

Nebol som pracoval veľa v poslednej dobe. Dúfam, že to nebude pokračovať dlho. Snažím nie tráviť príliš veľa času sám, pretože mám pocit depresie občas. Viem, že to bude lepšie. Nemienim sa vzdať. Tvrdý penis do pusy by bolo dočasným riešením, ale ja by som to baví. Bol by som rád, aby sa trochu spermie a moč.

Nebyl jsem pracoval hodně v poslední době. Doufám, že to nebude pokračovat dlouho. Snažím ne trávit příliš mnoho času sám, protože mám pocit deprese občas. Vím, že to bude lepší. Nehodlám se vzdát. Tvrdý penis do pusy by bylo dočasným řešením, ale já bych to baví. Byl bych rád, aby se trochu sperma a moč.

An Update with Adult Content at 15:41 (Updated)

I am relieved to find out that a friend will slap the shit out of me if I try any addictive drugs. I have a fear of getting addicted to any drugs anyway, and this will be an added incentive to stay away from these things. I would also lose his friendship, and I would definitely not want to do that. I spent some time with him, and I enjoyed that. He would not spank me as a form of punishment, because he knows that I would enjoy that. I also like pleasing him. I have been his urinal at times, and I want to be his cum dump as well.

I found out that a handsome friend is bi. I will not make any moves on him, but I will let him know that I would be willing to give him a blow job if he wants. I may have the opportunity to play with another friend, but if we do it will have to remain secret.

I have some straight friends who know that I think that they are sexy, but they know that I would never try to initiate anything sexual with them. I am much too submissive for that. I enjoy being submissive, and I do enjoy having men tell me what to do even if there is no sex involved.

A young straight friend was hinting that he wants me to give him money for sex. I would be glad to do that if I had money, but I am broke now.

"A Little Learning: An Autobiography by Evelyn Waugh"

I made an attempt to read A Little Learning: An Autobiography by Evelyn Waugh. I am glad that I did not have to pay for this book. I just wish that I had not wasted my time reading what I did of the book. I should not have ignored his statement where he said that he was easily bored. People who are easily bored are usually boring. I will not waste any more time on this book.

A Fear I Have

One of the things about which I have to be careful is to keep myself from being tempted with street drugs. I have tried to stay away from them, because I know that I could easily become an addict and lose everything that I have. I did have a taste of something that I should not have tried. The main effects were a heavy heart beat and not sleeping well that night. I do not think that I want to try that again. I have friends who are addicts. Mostly they do not try to get me to try anything. I do wish that marijuana was illegal throughout this country. I have an addictive personality, so I have to be careful.