More about my Best Friend and more

It has been great to have a friend with whom I can spend time. I had almost given up on finding a friend with whom I can have open communication and who is not just interested in getting money or a blow job from me. We have brief arguments occasionally, but they are brief. These usually happen when we are stressed and/or have not been sleeping enough. I know that we will not be lovers, because he is straight. Having a great friend like him makes me happy. He is a sexy fucker. I hope that we can find an apartment where can both have privacy. I like my basement apartment, but it is very small. It has a bathroom, kitchenette and bedroom. We share a king-sized bed. We have to be sure that we do not spend too much time with each other. I love spending time with him, but everybody needs alone time. This is a friendship that keeps getting stronger.

I met a couple of people through my Best Friend. A man and woman. She is a bartender at a bar close to where we live. They were at our place, and I have never felt so at ease conversing with someone I had known for so little time. They know a lot about music. More about them later.

I need to gain weight back. I have lost too much weight. I am not sure if I want to know how much.

Moving On

I have not been going to church lately. I have not felt like they really want me there. I don't exactly fit in there. I may be a bit too radical. No one contacts me when I am not there. It is a question of right and wrong. I just think that it is time to move on. This is not an easy decision to make, but I need to be around people who accept me as I am. There are people there whom I will miss very much. My heart will hurt from their absence, but I will be able to deal with that pain. I have new friends who accept me as I am, and I am thankful for them.

21/8/2017 A New Best Friend

It has been a month since I have been here. I have been spending time with friends. I have a new roommate. He is a great guy. We are best friends, but I have only known him for about a month. He is straight, so we will be nothing more than friends, but that is fine. I need friends. When there are problems we talk about them. It is great to have open communication. There are people who think that we are lovers, but they do not understand that two people can be close without sex and romantic entanglements. It will hurt when we have to move away from each other, but I am going to enjoy the time we have with each other. I know that if he starts a relationship with a woman we will still be close friends. I prefer to open my heart to someone to living in fear of being hurt. He knows that I would do anything that I can do for him, and I believe he would do the same. He is part of my family, and I love him.

I Need to Get My Ass in Shape

I need to work on my ass. It looks flabby, and I am not happy with that at all. I need to gain some weight too. I can do what I like most, sucking cock, without taking my clothes off, but I want to be happy with my physical appearance. I also need to find a way to relax my asshole so that a select few men could fuck it. A couple of friends owe me some dick. I have given them money for it already. I am not going to give them any more money until they fuck my face. I want to taste more cum and pee. I have another friend whose cock I have not yet tried. I want to fine him and please him. I also know two guys who are brothers who might want me to suck them both off together. That sound like fun.

I Wonder as I Wander: An Autobiography by Langston Hughes

I Wander as I Wander  is a book that more people need to read. Langston Hughes wrote about travels in Cuba, Haiti, the Soviet Union and Spain. He dealt with racial stereotypes, political systems and other issues. He was invited to travel to the Soviet Union in order to participate in the making of a film. Several other African Americans were also invited as well, because it was assumed that they would all be able to sing well.  This was assumed, because they were African Americans. This proved not to be true, and the film was never completed.

I remember from history classes that the Spanish Civil War had been used by the Fascists as a practice field for what became World War II. From this book I learned the role of African Americans who volunteered to go to Spain to fight against these Fascist forces. At the time in Spain these people were recognized as heroes, but they were forgotten afterwards. We say that the allies fought for freedom, but where was the freedom for Spain? The Spanish had hoped that Franco's Fascist government in Spain would be overthrown by the allies, but this did not happen. This government was in place until the death of Franco. The heroes about whom Hughes wrote in this book need to be remembered.

There is much more of interest in this book, but you would gain more by reading it than you would by reading whatever I can write about it.

14/7/17

I pampered myself by having a haircut and having my facial hair and eyebrows trimmed at a barber shop yesterday. This was the first time having a hot cloth placed over my face. It would have been nice if having the barber fuck my mouth as part of that. I had to wait until this morning to have a man cum in my mouth. I definitely felt better when I left the barber shop. I hope to be able to do this occasionally.

I spent close to five hours sucking a special friend's cock the other night. He did something that makes him super horny but unable to cum. I definitely enjoyed sucking his cock, but could have used a break during that time. The bad thing about giving head for that long is that the quality of my performance goes down. I like to perform at my peak level. Getting rewarded by having my mouth filled with yummy cum is not the only goal. I love pleasing a man.

I want to continue to be able to please men orally. I still love doing it in front of an audience.

The Autobiography of Malcolm X as told to Alex Haley

The Autobiography of Malcolm X As told to Alex Haley is a book that I think that we should all read at least once. I am rereading it now. I cannot remember exactly when I read this book the first time. If one wants to understand race relations in the USA this book is necessary reading. Along with this book I recommend the writings of Nikki Giovanni and Maya Angelou. I want to read more of the autobiographical writings of Maya Angelou. I do not know how anyone can remain unmoved by the writings of these three people. When I see photographs of Michelle Obama I am reminded of the Autobiography of Malcolm X and the writings of Nikki Giovanni. I am an admirer of Michelle Obama, but I wonder why she chooses to wear the hair style that she does. I wonder why she does not keep her natural hair style. She has the right to choose her own hair style, but what statement does this send to young African Americans? I think that all people should be able to be who they were born to be. I love and accept myself as I am, and I want to do what I can to help others to do the same.