Childhood Memories

It seems that I have very few memories of my childhood. There are very few photos of me as a child. There are no photographs of me before the age of two. I do have some happy memories from my childhood. I remember once sitting in mt Grandmother's lap and reading a book. This was a rare occurrence. I know that she loved me, but she was not an affectionate person. We always called her "Grandmother." I remember going on fishing trips with my Father. I do not remember much of these trips, but I believe that I enjoyed them. I never watched horror movies. I thought that they were beneath me. My strongest memories are about being afraid to displease my Father. He was a perfectionist. I remember once when I was playing with a yoyo he said that I was not doing it correctly. It was not possible to have a relaxed conversation with him. He would pounce on any grammatical mistakes. I remember playing softball with one of my sisters. I went with my oldest sister to a couple of films when she was in high school. I do not remember being enthusiastic as a child. I only remember that my it was not encouraged. Once I started to go outside with my shirt unbuttoned. My mother made me button my shirt. I have since started to open up, especially sexually, but that has taken a long time. Mostly I was encouraged to read, but I was not given as much freedom as many children are. My Mother was overly protective, and as a result I had to overcome many fears. She often was afraid that I would get hurt. I do not want to dwell on negative things from the past. I only want to consider them and let them go.