Monday Again

It's Monday morning again. I have never dreaded going to work as much as I do at this job and the one I had prior to this one. I need to focus on what I can control and not on what I cannot control. I cannot control how other people treat me or talk to me. I can control how I react to them. I cannot allow them to tear me down or cause me to be stressed. I know that I deserve better treatment. I will focus on doing the best job that I can. There are people at work who are nice to me. I am not going to worry about the others. There are people at work whom I would prefer avoiding, and I avoid them as much as possible. I do not know why these people want to focus so much attention on what I am or am not doing. They need to focus on themselves instead. I will survive this, but I will be happy when I can get away from the situation I am in. I need to keep on writing here in order to keep from not being able to communicate. I wish I had someone with whom I could talk. It becomes more and more difficult to open up to others. This blog is my outlet. Keeping things bottled up is tiresome. I am happy with who I am and who I am becoming. There is so much of this world I hope to see. There are so many cocks I want to suck. Those who do not listen to me do not know what they are missing. It is their loss not mine.