Sometimes I Have Doubts

Sometimes I feel afraid when I look towards the future. There are times I am more confident, but this is not one of those times. I wish I had the means to move somewhere that I could be happier, but currently I cannot do that on my own. Sometimes I think that I should have achieved more in my life than I have. I will be 56 in a couple of weeks. I have not had a real career. I try not to measure myself by what society finds important, but sometimes I fall into this temptation. I had thought I would have found someone with whom I could share my life by this time in my life. I sometimes ask myself if there is something wrong with me that causes others not to want me as more than a mouth into which to put their cocks. As you can see I still have a lot of work to do in building up my self confidence. I know that there things I do well, but I am not sure how to turn these things into something I can do to support myself financially. I need someone with me who will help me find my way. I do not want someone who will make all of my decisions. I need someone who will listen to me when I need to talk. I am keeping my head up, but sometimes it is hard.