When I graduated from college I thought of myself as a G.A.S. (gay atheist socialist). In my last Spanish class, Spanish composition, I talked the professor into letting me write an essay on why I no longer wanted to live in the United States. Being any of those things at that time was not popular at that time. I was planning on moving to France. I went as far as making a reservation on a flight there. I do not know if things would have worked out if I had done that. That professor wanted me to translate some of his books from Spanish into French, but I lat my lack of self confidence get in the way. I have regretted that since then. (I know, I need to let that go.)
Also in my last year of school I started pledging a fraternity, TKE. One time a naive, Baptist girl who was the girlfriend of one of the fraternity brothers asked me why I was an atheist. My blunt response was, "Why believe in something that doesn't exist?" I have mixed feelings about that response. I do not think that she was expecting such a curt answer. I tend to be more sensitive in the feelings of others when I give my views, but I am believe in giving my honest views. I ended up not joining the fraternity in part because of anti-gay jokes. I was not out in with most of the fraternity. Also I was getting ready to graduate.
This is the start of another day during which I will be happy being myself and not letting anyone, not even myself, damage my self confidence.
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