Reminiscing About MY First Relationship

Before my first real relationship I had had roommates whom I saw nude, and this was not usually a prelude to sex. I did not automatically think that because a man was nude he necessarily wanted to do something of a sexual nature. Sometimes male roommates would be passing by from the shower to their bedrooms. This caused problems in my first relationship later. He would sometimes go from the shower to his bedroom nude. I did not know until some time had passed that he had expected me to follow him into his bedroom to play around. It would have been nice if he had given a bit more of a hint. Well, to be honest,  sexual play with him was boring. He mostly wanted to cuddle and rub our cocks together. The few times I sucked him off he insisted on wearing a condom. I did not like that taste. This was in the early 1990's, so this was understandable. He never gave any indication that he wanted me to suck him more frequently, but he later said that he wished that I had done so. One of the main problems in our relationship was that he did not want anyone to know that we were lovers, not even people who knew we were both gay. He was afraid that there would be rumors if we split up. I tried to get him to focus more on keeping the relationship going instead of what would happen if we broke up. That was one of the main cause of our  breakup. I am not blameless in the relationship not lasting. I was not experienced with relationships. I do not want to be in another relationship with someone who does not want to acknowledge the relationship in front of others.