I wish that things that I knew how to do some of the things that come naturally for others. Other people are able to make small talk, but it is difficult for me. I can talk about language, literature, music, and the things that interest me. The state of my bedroom usually reflects the state of my mind, and now my bedroom is a mess. Another of my problems is still a lack of self confidence. I still have difficulty thinking of myself as an intelligent person. I wish I knew how to use the talents that I have to make a living. I encourage others not to let their feeling of self worth be defined by others, but I have difficulty doing this myself. I know that there are things I could do to get out of my current situation, but I really do not know how to do these things. Actually I will be able to figure things out. I just need to remember to break things down into pieces that I can handle. I am getting better at handling money. I may have to start selling some things. They are just things really. I need to stop beating myself up about the things that I cannot do. For now I need help figuring out a plan for getting out of where I am. I do have intelligence. My brain is just wired differently. If I can figure out how to travel across Europe, I should be able to do figure out what I need to do. That does not mean that I do not want input from others. I still cannot drive. I have gotten rid of fears. I need to get rid of the fears that I have left. I do not yet know what do, but with help I will be able to figure this out. I am not going to change who I am, but I am not going to continue thinking of myself as inadequate. I have all of the tools I need to succeed. I just need to find the toolbox.
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