I Am not Where I Want to Be in Several Ways

I am not where I want to be physically, spiritually, or psychologically.  I do appreciate the aid of those who are helping me. I would be absolutely lost without them, but I need to be around people who do not treat me like someone strange. People at the church say that they want to accept other people as they are, but sometimes I feel like I am the exception to that. I am not saying that this how it is. I am saying that it is how I feel. I am not saying that they are bad people. We are all doing the best that we can. I know that they are loving people. I need to be able to be more open about who I am. I really did not want to return to this state at all, but I did not have anywhere else to go. I know that I am the one responsible for the situation that I am in. I know that if I had a job and enough to eat I would not be as depressed as I am. It would also help if I had friends with whom I could laugh and talk. It is also helpful for me to be able to do things for others. One of the most important things for me is to be happy with who I am. I know that there is nothing wrong with who I am. I am not perfect, and I want to continue to learn and grow in many ways. I am the only person who has to be pleased with who I am. I have to be patient with myself.