I am being kinder to myself. That is a big step for me. I have spent too much time beating myself up emotionally. I spend a lot less time doing that. I still put taking care of friends before taking care of myself. I am working on that. I still have the fear of getting fat. I need to work on that. I want to stay heathy through eating right and getting exercise, but I need to worry less about my weight. Whenever I get over 140 pounds I start to panic. That is not healthy. I still forget to eat some meals. I need to spend less time coming up with excuses not to eat. I need to work on getting a home and getting a new pair of glasses. I need to get started on getting disability income. It has not been easy admitting that I have mental illnesses, severe depression and probably autism. Mental illnesses are not something evil, they are diseases. I still have areas where I need to work, but I feel good about the progress that I have made.
