29/3/17 17:59

I will be moving in a couple of days. I may need to find a new job. My hours are not regular enough at my current job. I like the company where I am working, and I like the people there. I do not want to look for another job, but I have to earn enough money to be able to pay my rent. I do not want to be homeless again. I hope that I can move somewhere where I can have a room of my own and have friends visit.

I wish I could do more for friends. I enjoy spending time with friends. I like to make special friends feel good in every way that I can. That includes making them feel good sexually, but I like making them feel good in other ways. I feel sad when a friend is going through hard times and I cannot help them. I have made some very good friends while I have been homeless. I will continue to value their friendship when I have a home. I am saddened that I will not be able to help them as much financially after I move into my new home.

On an unrelated note paying a guy for sex is a really big turnon for me, especially when he tells me what to do. I love to pay to suck a cock and swallow cum and pee.

A Post for Adults Only

I will be moving somewhere before the end of this week. If I am not able to move into the dungeon I will be moving in with another friend temporarily. I wish I could move into a larger apartment with the other friend. In either place I will be having sex more often on a regular basis. I fucked a friend recently. One night not long ago I sucked his cock for about three hours. I enjoyed doing both things, of course. Maybe someday soon we will have a threesome. I would not mind sleeping under a bridge with the right man, but I would not want to do this for more than one or two nights. I have sucked a man under a bridge. I was aroused by the idea that someone might have seen me sucking his cock.

Now I am horny. I can never get enough cock.

I have experimented a little with a drug that made me feel very good, but I do not want to be an addict. I will only do some drugs with friends whom I trust a lot.

"Ladders to Fire" by Anaïs Nin

I am very fond of the writing of Anaïs Nin. I especially like her fiction. I recently read Ladders to Fire, one of her novels. The influence of the writings of Djuna Barnes in evident, but it is not overwhelming. The writings of both of these authors contain beautiful use of words. When reading the works of Anaïs Nin I feel myself transported to other times and places. Her descriptions are very vivid. I wish her books were easier to find.

Another Post with Adult Content

I hope that I will be moving into my new home soon. I do not know what is going on concerning that. If I am not able to move there by the end of this month I could end up without a place to stay. I am trying not to get nervous about that, but it is not easy at times. I am not giving up, but I do not want to end up sleeping outside.

There are a couple of young friends who can persuade me to do almost anything. I could say it was because of their cute, seductive smiles, but they would probably be able to be as persuasive without the smiles. I think that both of them know that they have this power over me. It is fun for me too. I have made it clear here that I enjoy pleasing the special men in my life.

I have another friend whom I enjoy pleasing, but I have not been able to see much lately. He is very sexy, and his cum is yummy. I would love to be able to how far he can take me into BDSM. I think that we will be able to have a lot of fun together. We have not been able to do much together yet, but we have had fun. He is the second man who has been able to make me cum by sucking me. I definitely love sucking him.

Too Many Temptations on the Street

On the street I am being tempted in ways in which I do not want to be tempted. I have long had a fear of addiction. There is someone who can give me a seductive look and tempt me to try something to which I could become addicted. I do not think that he has bad intentions, but I want only to be addicted to the male anatomy and things that come out of a penis. I just have to be strong. I find it hard to say no when I am face to face with a man with a seductive look. I do love pleasing men.

The Essential Clive Barker

The Essential Clive Barker contains selections from novels and stories by Clive Barker. This book is a rich banquet. Mr. Barker has a marvelous way with words. Here is an example of this: "I'm like a man who's hired to break into his own house, who finds - much to his astonishment - that he's asleep in his own bed." There is much to delight the reader in this book. When reading his works, watching his films or looking at his art I am amazed at the richness of his imagination. He is able to portray vividly different landscapes and living beings that are outside of one's experience yet seem somehow familiar. I am always moved by the power of his art. He says that one of his influences is Jean Cocteau. I can see this influence, but he has a voice that is completely his own. I have not read all of his books, so I am happy that I have more to discover. I know that I will not be disappointed. In reading his works my intellect, imagination, libido and other parts of my mind are stimulated. I highly recommend the works of Clive Barker in any medium.

More About Some Important Men in my Life

I have some friends whom I love very much, and I will continue to love them. I will be moving into a house with one of them. He knows how to make me feel good, and I enjoy making him good. He stimulates my intellect, imagination and libido. I hope that I will be able to continue to love. I am afraid of loving another of these friends too much. He knows that I will do anything for him that I can. It is not just because he is cute and I would enjoy giving him oral pleasure that I love him. He has a lot of potential, and I want to see him fulfill this potential. I will not give up on him. There is a new man in my life. I want to see how things develop with him. I love pleasing him, and he enjoys pleasing me. Choosing just one is very difficult. I have had little contact with another friend, but he is still important to me even though he has hurt me more than he knows.