Feeling overwhelmed, and I don't know what to do.

I would like to be entertaining, but I need to write about some things that are not very entertaining.

I know that I am the one responsible for getting in the I am in right now. I may not agree with my sister about many things, but she has helped me. It is time for me to move on though. If I do move to Arkansas I will not be able to do that soon. I am not equipped to handle my current situation by myself. It is difficult for me to reach out to other people for help, but that is what I need to do. I know that things will get better, but I do not know what to do in the meanwhile. This week I will do more organizing of my things in boxes.

I know that I am far from perfect, but I am not a hypocrite. I have difficulty fitting into the society in which I am living, but I am not going to change who I am in order to fit in. I am not going to apologize for who I am. I may look at too much porn, but I enjoy it. I wish I knew how to handle the practical aspects of life better, and I am trying. With the economy the way it is now there are many people who are not able to live by themselves. I do not know if I am emotionally equipped to handle living by myself if I had the economic means to do so. I need the emotional support of my friends.

I am reaching out to people who are willing to help me find my way.

I do not like being a whiny bitch, but that is how I feel right now. (That is not to be taken 100% seriously.)