I Am Who I AM

I put too much effort into trying to figure out why I am the way I am instead of just enjoying being the way I am. I cannot change who I am to please the people around ,me. I am the only one with whom I have spend all of my time. I sometimes still have a tendency to worry that I will lose friends because of the things that I write here. Then I remember that if they are true friends they will accept me the way I am. I know that I am not the only one who thinks of religion, politics, sexuality, multiculturalism and other things the way I do. I wish that faith was easier for me, but it isn't. I am always questioning. I still have a lot of questions to explore about the Bible and the faith in which I was raised. I believe that we have reasoning brains for a reason. I have never felt comfortable with the idea of converting other people to any religion. I see nothing wrong with sharing one's beliefs, but this needs to be done in a considerate way. To me there is something fucked up about thinking, "You have to believe as I do or you're going to hell." In the realm of politics I lean very much to the left. The best way to define my political view would be democratic socialism. All people should have an equal voice in the electoral process. All people should have access to healthcare and education. No one religion or any ethnic group should have more power than any other. I do not think that having a socialistic government should interfere with the rights of the people as long as all people have a say in who represents them in the government. I have more to say about this as well. My views on my own sexuality is not set. I am definitely gay, but I do not know how kinky I am willing to be. I am definitely submissive. I am loving and caring. I think that what one does sexually is not the business of anybody besides the person and the person or persons with whom they have sexual relations. I believe sex should always be consensual and never exploitative. I have spoken about my views on multiculturalism and will do so again. The things I enjoy may not popular in this country, but it does comfort me to know that there are people in other parts of the world who share my tastes. I have more to say about these things, but it is time to get ready for work.