I Miss Human Interaction, but My Depression Is Usually Caused by My not Eating Enough

What I miss most now is having friends with whom I can talk openly without fearing that I will offend them or start an argument. I would like to have a man with whom I could have sec, but conversation is the intercourse that I miss most. It would be nice to find someone with whom I could have sex and a variety of conversations. I wouldn't say no to a hard cock, but if I had to choose between having a relaxed conversation with laughter and sucking a hard cock I would choose the relaxed conversation. I do miss physical contact, not just sex but also cuddling and kissing. I would love to be able to live somewhere that I could walk down the street with a man I love and to have a man who would want to do that with me. It makes no sense to me that in most places in this country two men walking hand in hand or kissing or showing affection is seen as a radical act. In some places two men who kiss in public face the possibility of being assaulted. Some people object more to seeing two men kissing in public than they do to two men beating the shit out of each other. That's fucked up. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy MMA. I am just saying that public displays of affection between two men or two women should not be seen as a radical act but as acceptable as displays of affection between a man and a woman.

I am lonely, but usually if I get depressed it is usually from not eating enough or not eating the right foods. I miss being able to pleasure a man, but that is not going to make me depressed. I definitely could use contact with friends, but knowing I have friends helps me. My depression usually has a physiological cause. It can become a downward spiral. I get down. Then I don't eat enough. Not eating enough makes me depressed. Eventually I start eating again, and I feel better. The right music can help with that too as long as I eat. I do want human interaction. We all need human contact. For the meantime chatting online, my right hand, some porn and my imagination will suffice.